<ljharb>
like, "you're getting a new vagina, let's party"?
<Coraline>
Of course you are tired
<ELLIOTTCABLE>
I went on a date, and it went well, and all I can think of is other things that are over
<Coraline>
You were 'on' all night
<Coraline>
Aww I'm sorry
<ELLIOTTCABLE>
like wtf is wrong with me rn
<Coraline>
Nothing wrong with being vulnerable
<ELLIOTTCABLE>
there's a person I'm just violently and irreparably in love with from my Deep Past, and that's just, like, something I live with
<Coraline>
Take it easy on yourself hon
<Coraline>
Oh
<ELLIOTTCABLE>
like some strange, quiet disease that's never going to kill me, just quietly and incurably reduce my quality-of-life indefinitely
<ELLIOTTCABLE>
but I'm *also* currently weirdly upset over the end of another recent thing? whom I was very much not, like, “in love” with?
<Coraline>
that makes sense
<ELLIOTTCABLE>
I just. liked it. and am weirdly-over-disappointed that it's over, despite how short it lasted.
<ELLIOTTCABLE>
so I'm currently somehow actively ‘going through’ two breakups at once wtf
<Coraline>
So my first love was this amazing Pakistani artist woman named Fatimah
<ELLIOTTCABLE>
like there's the one never-ending breakup, and then the Twitter rando that I'm having weird upsetting feelings over, *also*? -_-
<Coraline>
She graduated college and her visa required her to return to Pakistan
<Coraline>
Her family did not approve of her dating a white person
<ELLIOTTCABLE>
(tonight's girl is from Jordan)
<Coraline>
So our mutual friend Sarah forwarded letters from me to her
<Coraline>
Sarah was also Fatimah's ex-gh
<Coraline>
gf
<Coraline>
Sarah got jealous
<Coraline>
Sarah told me that Fatimah was killed in a car accident
<Coraline>
And stopped forrwarding me her letters
<ELLIOTTCABLE>
... at what age was all this?
<Coraline>
I found out YEARS later that that was a lie
<Coraline>
I was 19
<Coraline>
I saw an editorial she wrote after 9/11
<Coraline>
I got in touch with her
<Coraline>
I had mentally made our time together 100% magical
<ELLIOTTCABLE>
there's a Famous Elliott Ex who killed a couple people and then dropped off the map for a decade
<Coraline>
When we talked again and reminisced... she reminded me that pretty much all we did was fight
<ELLIOTTCABLE>
not quite on ur level though, I think you win
<ELLIOTTCABLE>
and that's saying a lot 'cuz I got some crazy dating history
<Coraline>
So our actual time together was miserable
<Coraline>
But because in my head she had died I couldn't think a single bad thing about her or our time together
<Coraline>
Brains are fucked up
<Coraline>
(wow that's also fucked up)
<ELLIOTTCABLE>
this is me and all of my exes without them dying?
<Coraline>
It's the same thing
<ELLIOTTCABLE>
I think I still love every person I've ever loved.
<ELLIOTTCABLE>
Just, in most cases, it's healthy; but in one, it's obsessive. /=
<ELLIOTTCABLE>
fucken chelsea, man, fucken chelsea broke me
<Coraline>
Brains are fucked. We're wired to be miserable.
<ELLIOTTCABLE>
fact
<ljharb>
i still love most every person i've ever loved
<ljharb>
to not do so is pretty weird i think
<Coraline>
I will never love anyone the way I remember loving Fatimah
<Coraline>
But I never did love her that way either
<ELLIOTTCABLE>
ljharb: literally everybody I hang out with acts as if it's Super Fucking Unhealthy?
<ELLIOTTCABLE>
I don't have a single ex I'm not on at least *mostly* good terms with; and in many cases, they're close friends
<ljharb>
i think what's super fucking unhealthy is pretending like you can "get over" the trauma of losing a deep emotional conneection
<ELLIOTTCABLE>
almost every one of my close friends is an ex, or at least someone I've had sex with. I get criticized for this all the time by people who *aren't* close-friends-or-exes.
<ljharb>
you can totes learn to cope with it
<ljharb>
but "get over it"? please.
<ELLIOTTCABLE>
lol
<purr>
lolnope
* ELLIOTTCABLE
hugs ljharb
<ELLIOTTCABLE>
let's have a hug at <insert conference here>
<ELLIOTTCABLE>
wait, have, we met
<ljharb>
deal
<ELLIOTTCABLE>
did nexxy ever introduce us?
<ljharb>
and nope, not that i know of
<ELLIOTTCABLE>
woah
<ljharb>
i've only hung out with nexxy in person 3 or 4 times
<ELLIOTTCABLE>
I just assumed you were one of the people I dragged in here after a NodeConf or JSconf
<ljharb>
i've never been to one of those
<ELLIOTTCABLE>
whaot
<ljharb>
i keep wanting to but things keep coming up
<ELLIOTTCABLE>
are you, by any chance, doing StrangeLoop this sept?
<ljharb>
i am not
* Coraline
has also never met and/or hugged ELLIOTTCABLE
<ljharb>
preggers spouse keeps me mostly anchored
<ELLIOTTCABLE>
where do you live? bay area?
<ljharb>
yup yup, just south of SF
<ELLIOTTCABLE>
what's a good slur for the bay area, I need an angry way to express my contempt when referring to it
<ljharb>
depends what thing you're contemptuous of
<ELLIOTTCABLE>
bay n'erea
<ljharb>
thing(s)
<ELLIOTTCABLE>
bay nevereverea
<Coraline>
Nay Area
<ljharb>
notbad.gif
<ELLIOTTCABLE>
notbad.gif
<ELLIOTTCABLE>
-find gif
<purr>
ELLIOTTCABLE: Found: thumbs up, best thing ever, scary, and curling
<purr>
ELLIOTTCABLE: Popularity: 2, last changed by: <unknown>, <unknown time> ago
<ELLIOTTCABLE>
it's an old one, to boot
* ELLIOTTCABLE
belts out country to himself at 2AM
<Coraline>
Why am I not sleeping
<ELLIOTTCABLE>
-sol @ Coraline
<purr>
Coraline: 17 045 ſ 257 752
<Coraline>
I have a half day of work to do tomorrow
<Coraline>
Sloooooowly coming off medical leave
<ELLIOTTCABLE>
woah I missed 17k
<ELLIOTTCABLE>
‘NewK’ sounds like a holiday from a post-apocalyptic-wasteland scifi novel
<Coraline>
I have no idea what you're talking about
<ELLIOTTCABLE>
“The survivors gathered every thousand days to celebrate another k of resistance, another k of resourcefulness and imagination, another k beating back the dark”
<purr>
ELLIOTTCABLE: Wed, 26 Oct 2016 02:23:59 GMT
<ELLIOTTCABLE>
coo
<Coraline>
This is fine
<ELLIOTTCABLE>
trying to open @jennygadget's megathread broke my twitter
<Coraline>
I should sleep
<Coraline>
Meanwhile you plan my vagina party
<ELLIOTTCABLE>
ooooo there's a leap-second coming up
<ELLIOTTCABLE>
we'll have your vagina-shower during the leap-second!
<Coraline>
Okie
<ELLIOTTCABLE>
December 31, 2016, at 23:59:60 UTC.
<Coraline>
Gnight sir
<ELLIOTTCABLE>
lolol goodnight CORALINE
<purr>
xyzlol
<ELLIOTTCABLE>
cannot hear your name w/o bluehair and buttons
Coraline is now known as CoralineZzz
<ELLIOTTCABLE>
wtf happened to the rotation of the Earth between 200 and 2006
<ELLIOTTCABLE>
2000
<ELLIOTTCABLE>
He has an extensive online site[25] devoted to the issues and the history of leap seconds, including a set of references about the proposal and arguments against it.
<ELLIOTTCABLE>
I have found my soulmate
<ELLIOTTCABLE>
woah well that explains so much! cool!
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<cloudhead>
alexgordon ocaml syntax gives me a boner, I don't know what you're talking about
<alexgordon>
cloudhead: it's not as bad as erlang
<alexgordon>
but still crazy
<cloudhead>
erlang is pretty bad I admit
<cloudhead>
I like crazy looking syntax though
<cloudhead>
perl, ocaml, shell
<cloudhead>
vimscript
<cloudhead>
the greatest attrocities have been committed with clean looking code
<alexgordon>
lmao
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<incomprehensibly>
8:45:37 AM <cloudhead> the greatest attrocities have been committed with clean looking code
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<pikajude>
hey guys, i'm stupid
<pikajude>
I need to printf a string with a certain length but it's not null terminated
<pikajude>
how do I do this
<cloudhead>
pikajude: that's not a string
<cloudhead>
if it's not null-terminated
<cloudhead>
so don't see why printf would accept it
<cloudhead>
you can't add a \0 at the end?
<pikajude>
figured out that if I made it an NSMutableData i could use mutableBytes
<pikajude>
which doesn't have a const qualifier
<cloudhead>
ObjC?
<pikajude>
yes
<pikajude>
then i can just set buf[[data length]] = 0
<pikajude>
and then it can be printed F
<cloudhead>
nice
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<cloudhead>
anyone going to LambaWorld this month?